HOPE…

You must never lose sight of it.

No matter how dark things may seem.

One day it’ll all make sense.

But until then you must remain strong.

Someone has to do it,

If not you, then who?

Never give up on people,

Even when they’ve given up on you.

Trust and Believe,

That everything happens for a reason.

Know that everything will be ok.

That you will be ok.

No matter what happens,

Never stop loving.

No matter what happens,

Never stop believing.

Never give up on who you are.

Never give up on who you want to be.

Always stand up for what is right...

...Even if you stand alone.

This world needs good people.

You can be one of those people.

This world will try to destroy

the light in your heart

Don’t let it.

You never know,

When the world will need that light.

So never let go of it,

Because it only takes one spark

to start a forest fire.

STAY STRONG

Words to a Broken Soul

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I'm writing this to the girl with the beautiful soul.

The one who chooses to carry the weight of the world on her shoulders,
even though she can hardly stand herself.
The one who cares so much about others,
yet fears she's not good enough for this world.
Perhaps it is this world that's the problem, not you.
because you are a beautiful truth,
living in a a world of painful lies.
To me, it is you who should feel cheated,

I'm writing this to the girl who's suffered so much,
yet remains so strong because of that.
I'm writing this to the girl who's very broken,
yet she is all the more beautiful for that.

Because no one wants to read about: 
a perfect person, 
in a perfect world, 
living a perfect life, 
where everything is perfect all the time.

People want to see the main character grow, and overcome the things they fear the most.
Just like you.
You are a beautiful character, living in a tragic movie.
No, you're not perfect.
But you shouldn't try to be.
How is anyone supposed to related to the perfect character?

They can't.
Because we are not perfect, we are human.
And we're gonna make mistakes.
We're going to do things we regret.
and like it or not, we're going to hurt people.

You've hurt people, so have I.
So has everyone else in this world.
Does that make them bad people?
Does that make me a bad person?
Does that mean I'm worthless?
Am I no better than the people you hate so much?
Simply because I've made mistakes?
Does that mean I don't deserve to live, and to be happy?
Does that mean I deserve to suffocate, to drown?
Does that mean you hate me too?
No, of course not.
You would never think that of me.
So then tell me,
How can you think that of yourself?

A smooth sea never made a good sailor,
and everything happens for a reason.
We can either choose to let our past haunt us
Or learn from it and use it to build something magnificent.

It's not about the person we were then
It's about who we choose to be now.
It's not about what we've done in the past
It's about what we choose to do with our future.

I'm writing this to the girl who's angry at the world.
Yet would do everything in her power to save it.
I'm writing this to the girl who wants to save everyone.
To the same girl who once saved me.

You.
You saved me.
You found me wandering in the dark, and you helped bring me back to the light.
You saw the light in me, when all I felt was darkness, and hatred.
You believed in me, even when I didn't believe in myself
You have shown me light, and warmth, and comfort.
Small acts of kindness, that I had not felt in so long.
You've shown me what true friendship really is.
You have no idea how much that meant to me
And how much it still means to me.
You did something no one else did.
And it's not that they couldn't do it
But that didn't know they should do it.
You didn't just tell me you cared about me.
You proved it.
And I wish I could show you how much that means to me.
I wish I could save you the way you saved me.
But all I can say is, from the bottom of my heart.
"Thank You"

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I'm writing this to the girl who thinks she isn't good enough.

The same girl who happens to be the most amazing person I've ever met.
I'm writing this to the most beautiful, the most selfless, the most caring, the most poetic girl I've ever known. Hoping it'll make her smile, even in the slightest. So she knows that I'm always here for her, and that I always will be. no matter what. Even if I can't do a lot to help. I'll always be there to listen. And I'll do everything I can, so I can see you smile again.

I'm writing this to my best friend, because I love her more than I could ever hope to fit on a piece of paper. I'm writing this to her, so she knows that she's so much more than she thinks she is. And I couldn't have asked for a better friend.

Puzzle Piece

 If my heart was a puzzle piece, 

it would be this one.

(This is the piece that people take for granted.

The one that people push aside until the end.

They assume it will still be there when they need it.

But when they finally do need it, They've lost it.)

It makes me sad.

So many people fit into my heart,

Yet there is no place for me in any of theirs.

Friendship is born...

FRIENDSHIP
      is born at that moment 
            when one person says to another:

"What! You too?

  I thought I was the only one."

                                                                                                                        -C.S. Lewis                                      

 

 “Walking with your friend in the dark is far better than walking alone”

The Beauty Inside You

This post is me trying to prove to you that you are good inside.

Because sometimes I think you forget that. And it hurts me to think that there are days where you feel like you're a bad person and even worse, a bad friend. And I know I haven't helped with that. In fact, lately it seems like all I've been doing is making things worse. I promised I would never hurt you, and I broke my promise. I wish I could take it all back, and put things back to the way they were, but I can't. And no amount of "I'm Sorry" is going to fix that.

I could sit here and tell you over and over that you're a good person. But chances are you won't believe me.

So let me show you why you are.....

Let's start with your mind. Never in my life have I met someone who is so brilliant. The world has tricked you into believing that you aren't smart. But never has it been so wrong. Academically you may not be the smartest person around. But guess what? That doesn't matter. Because of your creativity, and your problem-solving skills, and the beautiful way your mind works. You have a wonderful ability to produce beautiful things that I couldn't possibly imagine; such as art, poetry, and dance. Your mind has the ability to make beautiful things! That far outweighs anything you could ever read in a textbook. It's one of the many things I love about you! That and your open mind. You're always so open to anything and everything, you are always looking for knowledge and truth. You would rather go out and experience the world rather than read about it in some book. That, in my opinion, is what makes you the smartest person I know.

Now let's look at your soul. Your passion, your willpower, your very being and all that you stand for. These are all things I admire about you. Your focus, your ability to set your mind to something and go for it. To fight for what you believe in no matter what the odds. I have never ever seen you give up. That astonishes me, someone who gives up on anything and everything just because he is scared, or he is tired, or he simply doesn't think it's worth it anymore. You've been vegan for over a year now! Not because you're forced to be, but because you choose to be! That amazes me! I can't stay away from junkfood for a week! What's my excuse!? I have none. That is one of the many reasons I look up to you, why I aspire to be like you.

In dance you have found your passion. Because to you, dance is so much more than just movement. Dance allows you to express yourself in ways words cannot. It's your way of adding beauty to this world. Of saying "I exist! I have something to show the world! I mean something!", and you're absolutely right. Because when you're on stage, nothing else matters. Because when you dance, you feel alive. When you dance, you feel at home. You once told me that when you grow up you want to be a professional dancer. I know, without a single doubt in my mind, that you will be.

Finally, we arrive to your heart. One of the most beautiful hearts this world has ever seen. Full of life, laughter, friendship, and love. A heart which has touched many other hearts, including my own. So kind, and caring, and compassionate. You care about everyone, and you'd do anything for your friends. You're always thinking of ways to help others even when you're struggling to help yourself. That's a trait that far too many people undervalue. You've been hurt so many times, by so many people. And yet, you are still so caring, even to the people that have hurt you before. That's the most unselfish thing I could possibly imagine. 

You have the biggest heart I've ever seen. Full of warmth and light. It blows me away how many people fail to see that. Because when I look at you, I see something pure, I see someone that cares about people. I see someone who cares about the world and everything in it. A heart that wants to do whatever it can to help. Your heart has saved people. Your heart has saved me. Did you know that? Your heart was there for me when mine was broken. Your heart was there for me when I wanted to give up. Your heart was there for me when even my own heart seemed to be missing. Your heart was there to help me find myself again. How can you sit there and think you're not good, when your heart shines brighter than all the stars in the sky?

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Sometimes I think you forget how amazing you really are. I hope you can read this and remember what you really are. You Are Good! Don't you ever forget that! We've all made mistakes, we've all made bad choices, but that doesn't define who we are. You see, to me you're a role model. Someone I look up to. While you're wishing you could be better. I'm wishing I could be more like you. Because if the people in this world were half as good as you are, the world would be a much more beautiful place.

We're Never Alone

That's the thing about you and I. 
Although we both may appear so much different on the outside. 
Deep down we are a lot alike.

We both have struggles. 
We both have insecurities. 
We both have hopes and we both have dreams. 
We both feel like giving up, but we hold on just a little longer. We hold on because something inside of us that tells us to push on through. It tells us we will soon have our new beginning. And that in the end, this will have all been worth it. 

That's the thing about you and I. 
Although we both may appear so much different on the outside. 
Deep down we are one and the same. 
That is why i believe our paths crossed. 
To show us that we don't have to face this world alone.

A Second Chance

I'm not giving up, I'm just starting over.


This blog is not for you.
This blog is for me...
    
     This is a place where I will reveal my soul. Nothing held back, no filters, no unexpressed emotions. Everything posted here will be straight from my heart. This is the place where I will write with my heart, not my mind. The things I wish I could say, but can never speak. This is where they will go. This is the one place, where I will truly feel free to say what I need to say. You are more than welcome here, if you are willing to listen.

     The last few weeks of my life have been hell. I've never been more scared, I've never felt more helpless. I never realized how much I really had, and I never realized how much certain people meant to me. I cried, I suffered, I prayed. I prayed for a Second Chance, A New Beginning, a chance to fix it all. I just wanted to start again. I wanted to feel the beautiful feeling of love and friendship. I wanted to again feel the love I've tried so hard to ignore. I wanted my life back. 
     
     And now, here I am. And I've been given another chance to live my life the way I should have lived it the first time. Before my world was thrown upside down. Maybe it wasn't all bad, there was one thing good that came out of it. The journey through hell really opened my eyes and helped me to realize just how broken my life really was, and how broken it still is. How stupid I was for just being ok with it. Living day by day with all the depression, the heartache, the unexpressed emotions. The struggles; having a hard time trusting new people and having a harder time trusting the one I already knew. Living day by day on a routine that really only revolved on survival. I was to the point where I wasn't even alive anymore. I was more like a zombie than a human. I never realized how truly unhappy I was, and how unhappy i still am....

     I'm tired of living this way. I'm tired of hating myself. I'm tired of feeling worthless! Tired of looking in the mirror and seeing only a shadow of what I could be, of what I'm meant to be! I want to feel happy. I want to be able to smile and actually mean it. I want to be able to say I love you without questioning it. I want to learn to trust again, without any doubts. I want to have a friend whom I don't question "Why are you my friend?", I want to be able to fall asleep peacefully, instead of lying awake throughout the night wondering why I should even bother waking up. 

I want to be able to look up at the stars, and just dream again.

     I am not happy with who I am. But I look forward to what I will be. I'm done living like this. I know I have a long way to go. It's not going to be easy. But I'm willing to do whatever it takes. Because fifty years from now, I don't want to be the guy who looks back on his life and asks himself, "What If?", I want to be the guy who looks back and says, "I Did."